okaz guys thanks for all the asks.
I’ll now tell you why I graduated and what I was talking about in the ask in the screencapture above.
on the 10.14 was our last live. Our Ex-leader Kana announced her graduation from tonejewel 1 month before that live. since then every live was about her and she could have a good farewell with her fans. 10.14 was the last live, her graduation live. Since then, we were only me and Sana, so before we do a live again our trainee member would still get some lessons and sometime in december we planned to do lives again as new tone jewel.
a few days after kana’s graduation, my Boss, who is a very kind person, and does all the paperwork for my visa, which is a loooot of work, told me
I might not be able to continue my idol work as I did until then.
We always got our visa in Osaka Immigration office, but then, since we mainly worked in Tokyo, switched over to there. When he once again went to the immigration office in tokyo to extend my working (entertainment) visa, he was told they won’t let me work like this anymore.
Thing is, there is a law in Japan that says something like
as a foreigner you cannot do performances in a place that sells for example drinks or food with a entertainment visa for singers etc.
Which means you cannot perform at live-houses.
and nowadays in Japan’s live-idol,akihabara-idol,underground-idol scene, most live concerts are in live-houses. Really.
Sometimes you get to perform in CD Shops for example, which is basically not a problem.
but because of this I couldn’t do 90% of my idol activities anymore.
Which is definitely too much.
We were having live performances 2 times a day on an average.
So anyway, in Osaka they kinda gave me a special treatment, so I could perform, but in Tokyo they were stricter than that. And there’s no way to get around. So I had to quit now all of a sudden. With me, Sana also graduates. Because she’s actually in another idol group from her school (she’s in a music entertainment high school) and when I graduate theres no much reason for her to stay in tone jewel or so. So right now there are no members anymore but it seems my Management still wants to “resurrect” Tone Jewel and get new members. Idk.
I still have plans to go back to Japan in early December for a new project I am working on, all though I have to go with a different visa from now on of course. Because Visa’s are very specific and by the way you need a complete schedule of what you will do for the next months or so. If there’s no work, there’s no Visa.
so my management will do their best to bring me back but if nothing works I’ll probably just give up on the whole entertainment business thing and work something normal in Japan since I have 2 places who would take me. Just normal work. But I just want to live in Japan. So I don’t care if I can’t be an idol, it doesn’t change the fact that Japan is where I want to be.
About my graduation. I feel very very sad and in despair, because tone jewel was the most important thing in my life. I left school and my family and my country, and went to Japan alone, moved there. I gave my everything for this one job, and it was a really rough time. It was the only thing I had, and the only thing in my life that I was proud of. The only reason for me to live tbh. So now it has been taken away from me, I couldn’t do anything about it just because I am a foreigner in Japan. I felt so helpless. So hollow. I try to look forward and be positive but it just feels like my whole world shattered.
But exactly because there was nothing I can do, I feel like I shouldn’t worry too much, because you know, all the worrying and crying won’t change anything. I will try my best to build a new world for myself and find a new path to choose. (:
Being an Idol in Japan was the hardest time in my life so far,
but it was the best experience I ever made and I am proud of even if we didn’t sell 100000 CDs.
I’ll never forget my time as a member of Tone Jewel.<3
sorry for only whining and ranting, but I had to let it out at least once (:
I’m really sorry for the difficult things you have had to deal with but everything happens for a reason, and perhaps there are bigger better things in store for you. I am confident you will find a way. ‘Till then I’ll be rooting for you!
Hello~ Thank you♡ while I still enjoy making videos and hope to make them more consistently, life often keeps me too busy to make the time for it frequently. I also kinda feel like I have so many cool ideas I can’t execute, so I’m limited to the same-old-same-old. I’m trying to find a way around that though
(・ω・)ノ it’s funny that you mention them because they are two of my favorite groups of musicians! I’ve been in love with perfume since Puppy Love and have waited in anticipation for every new single since! Ayumi was my idol as a little girl♡ although I don’t listen to much of her newer stuff. I don’t really cover perfume much because the fullness of three vocal parts is taken away when I attempt to cover it. I just don’t do them justice>
I think people are blowing this way out of proportion. So she used the wrong terminology..come on. There was no homophobia involved, only ignorance that is perfectly acceptable considering Japan hasn’t really addressed being gay. She still seemed to warmly accept the fans she didn’t understand so I think people should give them more credit.